Many years ago, I once had my therapist tell me how some people could learn to paint with their feet, when I mentioned how my brain meds were starting to make me twitchy and that would effect my creation of art.

Tonight, for whatever reason, my arms are twitching all over the place. Even my therapist noticed it earlier this afternoon during our session.

This evening, it's pretty bad though.

Needless to say, that while the blood pressure medicine that I am on to help stop the twitchiness helps with the minor twitches, it makes the major ones, more, uh major. Which is not acceptable.

I am at a loss of what to do.

I am also at a loss of what to do about my mate and his medication woes. He's on meds for his ADHD, but if he forgets to take his meds in the afternoon, he becomes like a drunk person. Loss of coordination, labile moods, the whole deal. This has been going on for years. I'm at my breaking point after having to find him a few weeks ago, after he passed out on the train, getting off at a different station, and decided to walk home. I just can't do it anymore.

I'm competing against a drug, and to be quite honest, I am losing. I'm sure if I asked him to choose, he would choose the meds.

I looked up apartment prices this evening. Things are exorbitant in my city, but I was able to find a pretty cheap studio.

I don't want to go there, but, I'm at the end of my rope.

With him, with my twitchiness. All of it.

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