Forgiving myself

Sussh

Nov 30

So there's 31 more days for yet another year!

What have we learnt so far!

Definitely not making resolutions is one of them!!!!

I don't think I ever managed to complete one resolutions for one complete day!

Then there's people who started a revolution saying not following resolutions is mandatory!

That went down the drain.

30's are a very odd age. You have no idea where life is headed, you are trying your best to contemplate with meaning. And most of all, you want time to pass very fast to 40's , you know when life actually starts.

In my 30's, I actually understood my maturity. Which used to be a child's play.

Being angry at myself, shouting at people(especially my mom) when there is a slight change of plans. Giving up on the journey too soon.

It was way too overwhelming, when I was too scared, indecisive, and angry at myself for all the mistakes done that repurcated to endless fall of dominoes.

It's the time of the year! To finally see whatever happened has happened. Whether it is what that's supposed to happen or if I could have changed it's course. Well, I am here. And it's fine to forgive myself to start feeling the love again for me.

The anger, the words, the tears, the laughter and the smiles, the hugs and kisses, shoulder and hand in support, the heartbreaks, the breathless moments in excitement and fear. Everything is included.

Forgiving myself is a strong decision, to accept and carry on. The gracious smile falls upon.

Which is what we fight for, day and night, years and years. Isn't it?

There are things that could work your way, make you happy; things that could be a scar forever. Still you did everything you could and that's all it takes in life.

Be content. Appreciate the sunshine and the moon that follows you. Everything is going to be great now and years to come as long as you are strong enough to accept yourself.

It's going to be a great Christmas and a happy new year!

Be jolly!

~Sussh~

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