I decided last Saturday that I will write a blog post everyday and today marks one week of writing every day! It was not easy, there were days I almost did not write cause I binge watched TV and it got way past bed time but I actually pushed myself to write and I am glad I made it to one week.

Sometimes I wonder...why write? Well...I feel I look at the world differently when I start blogging. I am constantly looking at all my days experiences and even thoughts which flitter by and identifying..hey this one is worth a blog post. I almost feel I pay more attention to my life as live it in the moment when I know I have to find a blog post to write about it. That may sound a little extreme but it is kind of true.

Other times I wonder...who cares about what I write.. it is a bunch of sometimes unrelated ramblings about my take on life. Maybe I should spend time in writing a focused blog on a particular topic!? Maybe look for ways to monetize my blog that focused blog!? Maybe build a following of people who are interested in a particular topic? But I have such a wide range of interests that i am not able to narrow down on that one thing that I can write consistently about. And overall I feel I am a generalist and not a specialist on anything....maybe that is true or maybe I am just underselling myself because of lack of self belief.

I often tend to do things without really a strategic concrete end goal in mind. I just start things with plethora of possibilities..like I did the Yoga Teachers training course...lots of possibilities, do yoga yourself, teach at a studio, teach online, teach friends and family, teach the community...there are so many possibilities...and all these possibilities will stay. I am hesitant to commit to a path because that means closing other possibilities. Overall in life I tend not to be closer but an opener and an experimenter.

Maybe that i true..maybe that is not true!

Before I met my husband...I always liked open ended relationships...I did not want to close and commit to anyone person but when i met my current husband...I was sure I wanted to close and not have any open ended options anymore. So maybe I am not just a sampler but I just need to sample more than other people to decide what my path is before I choose to close my options and pursue it.

Maybe it is just that I am numerically a number 2 and have a rising sun in Libra which tend to make me like being open ended...maybe I like it...maybe I don't and get frustrated with it!

Gosh there are so many 'Maybe's' in this post that I should 'maybe' just go and change the title but I won't as the purpose of this post is to mark one week of my blogging everyday...and maybe we will leave it at that for now!

Cheers!

S

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