Getting sober is often sold as a before-and-after photo. Before: chaos, pain, mess, regret. After: clarity, joy, healing, gratitude, sunrise yoga. That story is comforting but woefully incomplete. Sobriety doesn’t magically turn life into something positive. It removes one particular way of coping with life’s negatives. What remains is… life. Unfiltered. Unbuffered. Occasionally beautiful. Frequently annoying. Sometimes brutal. When drugs or alcohol leave the room, they don’t take anxiety, trauma, loneliness, sensory overwhelm, grief, or existential dread with them. Those things stay seated at the table. Often they pull up closer. In early sobriety, this can feel like a trick. You did the hard thing. You stopped. Surely things should feel better now? Sometimes they do. Often they don’t. Not yet. Addiction works because it does something. It regulates. It numbs. It speeds up, slows down, quiets the noise, fills the gaps, makes the unbearable briefly bearable. When it’s gone, there’s a vacuum where a coping strategy used to live. Nature hates a vacuum. So does the nervous system. Sobriety, then, is not the end of the work. It’s the beginning of a different kind of work; learning how to be with discomfort without anaesthetising it. That learning is rarely glamorous.
For neurodivergent people especially, sobriety can strip away a layer of sensory armour. Alcohol dulls sound, softens social edges, blurs fluorescent lights and expectations. Remove it, and the world can feel sharper, louder, more demanding. If sobriety is framed only as “making better choices”, we miss the fact that many people were self-medicating unmet needs. So the task becomes this; how do we cope with the negatives without turning ourselves off? There is no single answer. Anyone offering one is probably selling something. What does help, slowly and imperfectly, is building a wider toolkit than substances ever allowed. That might include:
It also means letting go of the idea that sobriety guarantees happiness. Sobriety guarantees presence. Presence means you feel the good more clearly; but you also feel the bad more acutely. That’s not a failure of recovery. That is recovery doing its job. A sober life isn’t a permanently positive life. It’s a life where you’re no longer outsourcing your capacity to cope to a substance that ultimately takes more than it gives. It’s learning to stay when you’d rather disappear. To feel without being flooded. To struggle without self-destruction. Some days sobriety feels expansive. Some days it feels like white-knuckling reality with a cup of tea and a lot of swearing. Both count. If you’re sober and wondering why life still feels hard, nothing has gone wrong. You’re just meeting the part of the work no one puts on the posters. Sobriety doesn’t fix life. It gives you a fighting chance to learn how to live it. And that learning is slow, uneven, deeply human work. A full life is a life of feeling, no matter what that feeling is.
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Saturday, 24 January 2026
Nobody Warned Me That Sobriety Would Still Hurt
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Nobody Warned Me That Sobriety Would Still Hurt
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