I am at a somewhat important yet equally uncertain point in my career.
I quit my job two years ago and decided to create a startup. I had little idea what I was doing but I had a whole lot of motivation.
As the motivation has began to wane, I am really hurting in the 'ideas' department. I created a course and I know another *free* course I want to create but it is taking longer than planned for my business to gain adequate traction.
Therefore, I have started applying for full time work. But at the same time, I am working on my novel and there I am finding more motivation.
Would Every hate me if I just gave up everything else to paint?
Painters, obviously unless well connected, don't tend to make much of an income. And having Time to paint is rather lucky or an economic privilege. But I just keep feeling more are more that Everything is art, even business.
A painting my mother did
So right now, I have about 8 canvases with paint on them, all inspired by my upcoming book. I am still stuck on chapters 7 and 8 but I have material up until around chapter 10. And I believe the book will be around 14 chapters.
Canvases I've piled up over the years
I have more artwork than I have included in the above photo, including small pieces, drawings (even characters so to speak) and some pieces which I will probably never finish.
In one way, I feel like painting right now is procrastinating. I just painted a cork board gold with black flowers today for absolutely no reason...I just didn't know what else to do. True, it is Sunday and the weekend and I probably should be relaxing on the weekend...but it's difficult to do that when you already feel behind.
So now I am at a position where I am at the end of my savings, and wondering even more how I should spend my time.
Hopefully, a few new people I met might give me some insight and maybe I will gain some team members for the startup so it isn't just me...but if not...is it really so bad to just keep painting?
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