Bloganuary: What are your biggest challenges?
Self-discipline. It has to be. I realise that it's just the one thing and the question is asking for a multitude of things. My self-discipline affects many areas of my life, though, so…I am envious of people who appear to have their shit together.
I am able to commit to something that I want, sometimes to obsession. What I struggle most with is commitment over time. My focus gets blurry, my passion wanes, my gumption goes away. Thus, the challenge of self-discipline.
It's difficult for me to see purpose without a product. Because going to the gym once won't make me beefy, going a second time doesn't feel worthwhile. This, however, is one of those things in life, like there are so many others, that is productive over a period of time, with consistent effort. Writing a book, getting a Master's degree, and reading a chapter book, are just the same.
I admire people who intentionally work toward a vision they have of themselves in the future by putting in the necessary effort now. They must have an understanding of time that I don't. Is time a collection or sequence of moments?
Self-discipline is something I certainly want to work on this year. I want to remain integral to my personal goals, to my self-identity, to my vision of my future self. To do this, however, I must first paint that picture, which'll likely take some time.
Fuck.
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