Happy Easter weekend everyone. I got up early and went to the gym for my workout. Yes I have been going pretty much every Saturday and sometimes after work for over 2 years now. I got home and finished and posted my bog from last Sunday as I am behind again on them. Now it is a beautiful weekend for Easter Friday through Sunday is going to be sunny and around 70 degrees. Now in a week I am on vacation for 2-weeks and the first week is around town and also getting some yard work done but with the nice weather I started today so my vacation will be more free. I worked in my yard till almost 2pm before I went in and got ready. I am meeting Jennifer and a prospective new member tonight at the Escape Bar & Grill at 5:30 and of course I do want to stop by Starbucks as I need to write my blog for Wednesday night's dinner. I did post in the group I would be there in case anyone else wanted to join us. With the nice weather I wanted to wear my green t-shirt dress of course I will also wear open foot black tights as the dress is just a little short when I sit down and my sandals which I think will be a cute look. Yes I am a summertime girl as I don't like wearing coats plus summertime outfits are cuter unless you are getting all dressed up. I took my time getting ready, which I enjoy still, there is just something about doing my makeup and transforming myself to my feminine self
I was all ready by 3:15 and took some pictures before I left. I got to the Starbucks in Orchards at 3:30pm and went in, they were not that bust so I got my drink and sat down to work on my blog. This has become part of who I am, I like to write about my life and time as Susan when I am Susan and when I am Susan I want to be out someplace. Kind of a loop effect as to write my blog means I get to be Susan again which in turn creates anther blog I need to write. I worked on my blog and finished it and will post it tonight when I get home as I posted one earlier today and I try not to post them one right after another so people don't think I am spamming them. plus I do enjoy going to Starbuck, I spend a lot of money coming here but that is Okay as I bought stock in them a few years back and it has almost doubled in that time. I stayed here till 5pm before leaving as I did want to get to the Escape a little before 5:30 as the new member is going to be there between 5:30 & 6 and I didn't want them to arrive and us not be there. She is just starting out and at this point only has a few clothes she wears around the house so we wanted to see wear she was as far as presenting. He gender community is huge with a wide range of from very part time to fully transitioned and from those who only dress part way to fully presenting and all are valid but when our group goes out we do want to present the best we can and in a respectful way towards women. Now I am not saying we pass or look totally like women but we are making our best effort.
I got to the Escape and parked and Jennifer was sitting in her car so we walked in together. What a wonderful surprise as Nicole came down for the evening, she lives about 1 ½ hours away and do to things going on right now her girl time is limited so her wife and daughter suggested she come down as they know she needs it. We all ordered dinner and sat down to talk. We talk about our being able to express this side of us and what we need and as always there are some things in common. For me I do have a need to express this side of me. Now I do keep my toenails painted red and my acrylic nails so that does help. I figure I could go 3 weeks without expressing Susan before I really started to struggle with it and by that I mean stress and trouble sleeping. Being Susan is a huge stress reliever for me as I kind of step out of my male life for a time, call it a mini vacation. The bigger issue is after a while it affects my sleep as when I lay down in bed my mind stars thinking about being Susan and why I can't express her and when will I be able to and then I can't clear my mind and yes I have trouble sleeping. I discovered this back a few years when my parents were having health issues. It got so bad one morning when I couldn't sleep I got up at 4am and got dressed and went to the Starbucks by my house when they opened at 5am and stayed there for 1 1/2 hours before going home and cleaning up and then going over to take care of my parents 
and just that short outing made the difference and that night I slept great so there really is a physical need to be able to express my feminine side.
It was a little before 6 when our new member showed up, she was in male mode and her name is Jayne and she brought her spouse with her as she wanted to get his opinion on the group also and wear this might lead. They seemed really nice and it was nice to get to know them. Jayne explained where she was which was just starting out and yes it is more than just wearing women's clothes, she does want to be able to express her feminine side but really doesn't know how which is understandable as there really is a lot to being able to present as female. I can remember my journey and if I go back and look at some of my early pictures especially before I started going out there is a huge difference in how I looked. We recommended she go to wigland and get a wig and Jennifer said she could take her to Nordstroms to get a makeover with Tiger or Harmony, the 2-makeup artists she has gotten to know there and they could give her tips. I recommended YouTube videos as I love watching them and that is how I have learned by trying to do what they show. My wo favorites are Nikkie Tutorials and Julia Graf although Julia hasn't posted any new videos in over two years. Jayne seemed excited about where this was heading and her Spouse seemed like he was supportive but there is a big difference between wearing women's clothes at home and dully dressing up and going out. We assured him he was welcome to come to the dinners with Jayne like the other spouses do.
Nicole warned him about the pink fog which I liked the term and never thought of it that way. when you finally do break free and start expressing your feminine side it is easy to get caught up in it and go overboard and by that I mean spending a lot of time as your female self and yes spending a lot of money as there s a lot you need early on just buying the makeup is expensive. When you buy one here and one there you see the small amounts bit even drug store brands if you went in and bought, primer, foundation, contour, bronzer, blush, eye shadow, mascara, eye liner, brow gel and lipstick all at once it is not cheap. I really do like that term the pink fog as yes at first it is easy for your female self to take over once you let her out of the bottle. They stayed for a couple hours and it was really a good time. After they left we all wondered what the conversation was on the drive home bit I think her spouse will be fine as long as she doesn't go way overboard.
It was about 8:30 and Lauri showed up which was nice to see her again. She came to dinner when we went to Mc Grath's fish house a couple weeks back but other then that it has been about a year sense she has been out. it was great to talk with her. Karaoke started and they had a different lady running it and she kept the volume down some which was nice as we could still talk. It wasn't really busy tonight but t was a lot of fun. It was a little after 9 when Nicole, Jennifer and I paid our bills and called it a night. 
Now I am looking forward to Sunday and plan a little Susan time. It will be Easter Sunday which again is one of those Family days. I plan on having a ham dinner as that was the tradition for me growing up. I will also watch a movie and then go to bed. Monday being the first I have to be at work extra early.
Thanks for reading my blog and sharing this part of my life with me.
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